Life is like an adult-themed colouring book!

Hello, bask in the sunshine of this blog post, positivity is shining out of my backside this week! I set up a Facebook page for my project https://www.facebook.com/dan.goatnewry and did an adequate amount of work on constructive things - I clearly got the boost I needed in the past few days. In an entire 5 day period, I played Mario Golf for one hour, got an Eagle on an 18th hole, and I was content - I stopped playing and proved I have not got a videogame addiction. I am inching towards tackling the one or two areas of SRS BSNS (an online term meaning serious business) I've got to do involving money and/or having a backbone but finding a proper use for social networking... this is the thing that helped me this week. And now my confidence is back, I'm thinking of my workshops - I again fancy my chances at being the dude who can deliver a bit of creative and almost 'sentimental' stuff that makes people feel good about themselves and will help people to be creative or artistic or culturally astute or whatever.

I have got on track with the two central nuggets of my project - connecting with the community and at least aspiring to be creative. I think it's also called initiative, which is the drug that entrepreneurial types take. I did all the sending of emails and requesting of freinds in Facebook and it got me round to thinking that putting a mind-numbing amount of theoretical stuff into something not-unenjoyable does not make me 50 years old and dull. Especially when I treat sharing ideas as a very formalised practice before I look upon it as brainstorming. It saves other people getting bored when I go all political and stuff, because anyway that's the dull stuff that needs to stay in the background. Like the government talking about art, groups conforming to make the art pleasing to all, and individuals still being entitled to create whatever fun shit that they want. It's dull but also not.

The more colourful stuff that other people will latch onto will be the thing that defines my project in image and output, but it's obvious that this will not become useful for a while yet. While I straddle the professional and the informal tasks I need to get on with, the content of my first few workshops is clear - an intro to my network by chatting about my project's role in the town, and an intro to being creative by drawing from my own experience. I like making stuff, however amateur when it encourages me to be myself, which is eccentric but not to the point of being an attention seeker. This is why I recently did some reading up on anarchist art and humour, and even wrote a letter to one or two as Luddite 'Anarcrisps' really appreciate that sort of thing and also I felt a bit like Sherlock Holmes. Since I can't play musical instruments, or paint, or write plays like other members of my family I like using the old brain in the way we used to before being too busy and before the Internet...

But I'm still a strange bugger who hates making phonecalls and is... 'scared'... of money. Yup. Now, back to doing professional stuff like a big grown man and colouring in all the things I need to do to make the picture of Wayne Rooney or Reese Witherspoon look finished. This is a metaphor, the one from the title. And why am I being post-modern when all that stuff annoys the hell out of me.