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Friday 17 February 2012

Life is like an adult-themed colouring book!

Hello, bask in the sunshine of this blog post, positivity is shining out of my backside this week! I set up a Facebook page for my project https://www.facebook.com/dan.goatnewry and did an adequate amount of work on constructive things - I clearly got the boost I needed in the past few days. In an entire 5 day period, I played Mario Golf for one hour, got an Eagle on an 18th hole, and I was content - I stopped playing and proved I have not got a videogame addiction. I am inching towards tackling the one or two areas of SRS BSNS (an online term meaning serious business) I've got to do involving money and/or having a backbone but finding a proper use for social networking... this is the thing that helped me this week. And now my confidence is back, I'm thinking of my workshops - I again fancy my chances at being the dude who can deliver a bit of creative and almost 'sentimental' stuff that makes people feel good about themselves and will help people to be creative or artistic or culturally astute or whatever.

I have got on track with the two central nuggets of my project - connecting with the community and at least aspiring to be creative. I think it's also called initiative, which is the drug that entrepreneurial types take. I did all the sending of emails and requesting of freinds in Facebook and it got me round to thinking that putting a mind-numbing amount of theoretical stuff into something not-unenjoyable does not make me 50 years old and dull. Especially when I treat sharing ideas as a very formalised practice before I look upon it as brainstorming. It saves other people getting bored when I go all political and stuff, because anyway that's the dull stuff that needs to stay in the background. Like the government talking about art, groups conforming to make the art pleasing to all, and individuals still being entitled to create whatever fun shit that they want. It's dull but also not.

The more colourful stuff that other people will latch onto will be the thing that defines my project in image and output, but it's obvious that this will not become useful for a while yet. While I straddle the professional and the informal tasks I need to get on with, the content of my first few workshops is clear - an intro to my network by chatting about my project's role in the town, and an intro to being creative by drawing from my own experience. I like making stuff, however amateur when it encourages me to be myself, which is eccentric but not to the point of being an attention seeker. This is why I recently did some reading up on anarchist art and humour, and even wrote a letter to one or two as Luddite 'Anarcrisps' really appreciate that sort of thing and also I felt a bit like Sherlock Holmes. Since I can't play musical instruments, or paint, or write plays like other members of my family I like using the old brain in the way we used to before being too busy and before the Internet...

But I'm still a strange bugger who hates making phonecalls and is... 'scared'... of money. Yup. Now, back to doing professional stuff like a big grown man and colouring in all the things I need to do to make the picture of Wayne Rooney or Reese Witherspoon look finished. This is a metaphor, the one from the title. And why am I being post-modern when all that stuff annoys the hell out of me.

Friday 10 February 2012

Imitation is flattery. Use inspiration to the fullest. Etc. It's all good.

This blog seems to be a good omen for me, whether it gets page visits or not. :P In my attempts to document and think more pro-actively about my venture into social enterprise, other things are again beginning to fall into place, or at least seem to. While the tempo is continually slow but steady, with any doubts and other limitations still remaining - the notion of things progressing smoothly and consciously for me is more definite than ever.

An opportunity has presented itself where I will be able to work creatively with others in terms of BOTH my affiliation with the REAL Network (disability human rights) and also by revisiting / re-asserting the use of my skills and knowledge which will need to be more than adequate for me to participate in and manage Goat. Yes, once again I am staying true to myself: if I am presented with an obstacle (pre-workshop publicity and awareness raising) - I must either delegate (use any support or manpower available to me), or take inspiration (by analysing, by emulating or by learning from others). And the first person I must prove this to will be myself.

Often in a project with many elements to bring together it can be tricky to remind yourself of its most important foundations. Today, for the first time in a while, I read the original mission statement for Goat, remembered my priorities and saw that all was in order. For the dozenth time three areas were of concern, and in flagging these up constantly I could relax again: purpose / content, further networking and basic finance. Such issues only remain concerns as your past and current progress (or, in particular, a lack of) can be something you forget about when you are moving forward. There is a skill involved in bringing ideas together in an entrepreneurial fashion and this skill is going to require everything I have to perfect, but for now a lot of practice and effort is going to be needed for this to develop.

Still, I have not yet 'cracked it': my esteemed and experienced ally, Stephen, would surely read this blog and wanted to have seen, as I'd also have liked, a little bit less about the future creative planning for Goat and more of the enterprising and networking which I really need to get on with ASAP. I am close to a breakthrough in feeling confident with my decisions for every facet of Goat, but I'm unsure if the 100% realistic picture is clear and present to me just yet. Crud!

Tuesday 7 February 2012

Best laid plans are just ahead of every other obstacle...

My main bone of contention in getting my project going is the idea of getting one's priorities right. In this post: I will tackle my creative, silken cobwebs, in this case one of dozens of very exciting tasks to achieve in the workshops; so I can better deal with the many legged spider, the professional and logistical considerations, by delegating with others. Feels strange to plan what I'm about to write - it's always a chore for any former journalism student as word counts can be very restrictive. But blogging is completely different and this is why I will again praise this medium as my most valuable tool in planning every detail of my venture. Without further ado I want to flesh out the type of ideas that myself and others at or involved in the workshops can see my project's philosophy take shape. Then I have people to meet and questions to ask 'in real life'. Sometimes, stuff on the internet doesn't mean anything. Like ten year olds using Facebook. Regardless of intelligence, I knew basically NOTHING at ten! Lol.

Firstly, I want to discuss in and around the idea of something I am passionate about and would love to see in a creative/'academic' medium - but also will really come to life when a group of diverse people can help create it. When Goat is up and running, I would like to create a series of short documentaries on local social issues, for broadcast locally and on YouTube/ other online social media. As a socialist and rights activist and a former student of sociology, journalism and media studies my view is that political issues affecting ordinary people and are nothing less than vital for everyone to try and find solutions to. Or our lives will be always be too tough. With the history of Northern Ireland, it can surprise people that the difficulties 'we' have are often the same as everyone else's. But topics such as the general impact of welfare reforms on vulnerable people; public anger with the financial system creating continually excessive unemployment levels in every part of the UK and Ireland; and even an insight into what my hometown of Newry really needs from its upcoming (proposed?) City Regeneration scheme are nothing less than begging for attention. And who's voices do I reckon need to be heard more often on these issues? The same marginalised groups that my workshops wish to attract, which is no coincidence. As a disabled person, my project is dedicated, although not exclusively, to engage with anyone 'different' - disabled, gay, young, old, unemployed, socially excluded, recovering from an addiction, those with mental health issues and people of 'other' ethnic backgrounds.

While at this stage this is 'big talk', it is things like this idea which will be key - I hope - in making my project attract all the positive feedback that is needed to succeed. Creativity with personality and fun will feature in my plans for many individuals' creations as members of Goat; but there must also be some hard graft and professional thinking behind my project. This kind of community benefit is the reason why I was given an UnLtd award and already I feel the potential for great things. In terms of creating the like of a short film: all I lack personnel-wise are other participants to attend my group workshops and one or two tutors to host a couple of short sessions on basic film-making and editing skills over the course of Goat's workshops. Outside of this, with myself as co-ordinator and participant of a startup in social enterprise and invaluable people ready to give me advice from bodies such as NMEA and UnLtd, all I lack in that regard are a few more useful contacts, a lot more perspiration, a bit of inspiration and planning for the next few months. And, trust me, I do at least think I know what I'm doing.

Monday 6 February 2012

Down to 'business'

My name is Dan Rafferty, an unemployed graduate and disability rights activist [http://realnetworkni.com/ ]. I have taken a few steps down the career path of social entrepreneur and it is the best thing I have ever done alongside getting my degree and campaigning for disability rights. And now I want a job - without being limited to the Job Centre. My major strength in the job market is my staying power with less conventional ideas for building my career; my major flaw is wavering self-esteem and lack, as a professional, of 'the voice of authority' when promoting myself and my ideas. This blog, however, will give me confidence in dealing with others when promoting my project in a way that social media does not. Say what you like about being online - but there is no greater resource, for a man with an idea, than the internet. Apart from Facebook, I'm on it but it's a horrible waste of time in my opinion. :/

On one hand the decision to turn to social enterprise came from my study of journalism, politics and sociology, and my skill with the English language - and if I think I can write like an entrepreneur, chances are I can talk, act and feel like one. Someday, I might be one - and so far I have immense pride in the fact I have an UnLtd [ http://www.unltd.org.uk/ ] award for my project. While I am yet to put in the work if feel the project needs, on the way to where I am now, I surprised myself and agreed to try a local programme for people to learn business startup skills [ http://www.goforitni.com/ ], from which I learned plenty of tips and up went the self-esteem once more. To me, I am in social enterprise and not in business and I do not believe in capitalism - but this archaic Marxist notion of mine in no way deems all of free market capitalism to be negative (but the Thatcherite stuff still proves itself to have been harmful to the UK). Economics aside, the thought processes in motivating the entrepreneur in me via the Go For It startup programme suggest that my idea will succeed. And personally, having the self-belief of a successful businessman is going to transform my life for the better.


So, what is my idea. Do I have copyright for the above logo? And what on earth is G.O.A.T.?
Goat is my proposed name for a local social enterprise project. With some invaluable help from Newry and Mourne Enterprise Agency I am putting together a series of workshops. Their goal is to teach and explore creative skills to anyone that wants to attend, while motivating them as part of a group who will ultimately have grown and expanded their transferable skills. Also, a major element of my project is the desire to cater for vulnerable or marginalised members of society, integrating them into a social environment which will bring out their creativity, personality, skills and knowledge. The project is nothing to do with Cameron's Big Society drivel, but is certainly a project with potential benefits for my local community. Right at this moment, my task is to get people on board to formulate the workshops but annoyingly it is the hardest part, other stuff has taken up my time, and I'm a wee bit stuck.

Beyond this, in future (when I'm more sure of what the heck I'm doing) I imagine myself filling the blog with ideas for the like of amateur short films made by Goat: documentary ones, cultural ones, fan ones... all the way to out sourcing commissioned fundraising ideas and content for workshop 'tutors' to deliver. All I want from the content and creations of my workshops is to show off the benefits of different individuals brainstorming over different media and enjoying the process. This blog is my channel of thought - feedback, dialogue, conversation etc will become my best friends and writing stuff down is my course of action in my early years of social entrepreneurship. So ask me anything, I don't have all the answers, even if it is my project.

A final note, if you want to know the real me, these are the kind of things the internet was made for. In-depth academic analysis for something as 'entertainmenty' and nerdy as videogaming:
http://www.screwattack.com/shows/partners/game-overthinker/game-overthinker-episode-61-bells-whistles

Sunday 5 February 2012

Countdown to the Disappointment: Crippled Bob's Skyward Sword Epiphany

So, this blog has a new name. This blog has one previous post. This blog will fall on its arse again if I piss around with fonts etc. way too much this time round and disabled people get tired easily. Don't judge. I swear my life is more eventful that this blog's archive suggests, but by Jesus my posts will be more epic that the other shit I've deleted from three and a harf years ago. Having learned from failed past blogs and finally figuring out how to keep busy as a recession-era graduate: this blog is going to give an insight into my foray as a creative social entrepreneur and; because it's like a bad habit of mine, act as a soapbox for me as a general chatterbox about different tidbits of popular culture. That shit gets everywhere. I will now pretend that this blog has always been really good but full of its self and has garnered such a merit through endless months worth of totes amazeballs posts on topics like Charlie Sheen, Scottish pandas and oil spills. Blog post about meeting a legendary politician in 2008? Check. Blog post about playing THE Zelda game that DEFINES what makes a legendary videogame? Ok let's go... but it may surprise you.

A friend of mine from Germany, with a knack for being cuttingly realistic, told me that at the time I was too excitable and should never expect too much from something - lest ye be disappointed. These were not his exact words because he is not Wilhelm Schakespearen. And I misspelled 'because' just there. And fixed it. Pity my friend didn't advise me on my spelling-based OCD. :( lol jk

Anyway, this dude knew what he was on about, because I am a gullible bastard for my own bullshit. Disappointment tends to linger around enthusiastic people like a bad smell and is there to kick them in the balls without warning. And as a huge fan of Nintendo games, especially the Zelda series, the last time I played a new Zelda without a hitch of some kind was probably 7 years ago with Minish Cap - that's the same length of time Link was in cryosleep for in Ocarina of Time FFS! Twilight Princess got played months later than I would have liked because the Wii I was to get that Christmas didn't arrive in time over the university "Winterval". IKR, winter and interval... :/

But this was pish to worry about, since now that I've bought Skyward Sword, the only Nintendo and/or Zelda game to get 10/10 from Edge UK (prestigious gaming magazine) - I am not sure if I will actually ever get to play it. Why? Because the Wii MotionPlus controller is Nintendo's big fuck you to people with limited mobility. And the only way to play Skyward Sword, which has the initials 'SS' and this is a little bit suspect thanks to that big war from CoD: World at War featuring Dr. ToothbrushTache. Fucking game, I CAN'T EVEN SWING LINK'S EFFING SWORD. EVEN ONCE... IN THE TUTORIAL! WITH ALL MY BLOOD VESSELS INTACT! And now a lifelong fan of Nintendo might have to buy a non-Nintendo console in future. Granted, that's not a biggie for most people BUT the last non-Nintendo console I bought was a Sega MegaDrive [ok I bought my sister a PSP but just pretend I didn't, since I am 100% anti-Sony]. But... and there's always a but... I'm not really all that heartbroken about my potential exclusion from playing Skyward Sword. I'd have cried if I was 12 or something... but at 26?!? Meh. My 'epiphany' is that there are other things in life than videogames, and that my epiphanies are pretty shallow. :D

I have three options: patience, appeal or amnesia. Patience: as soon as the bitterness leaves me and I get that delicious, newer, comfier wheelchair I'm waiting on, I will try again to play SS using the slightly smaller Wiimote with built in MotionPlus. In the likely event of this plan not working, I will do a lot more blogging, resume building... or sneakily buy a 3DS as I continue to bitch about Nintendo, capitalism, and my T-rex arms. RAWR! Appeal would be to brush up on my Japanese and write them a stern letter. Japanese businessmen would be all over a stern letter / customer query, and I need an excuse to learn more Japanese, since, like that dick Sarkozy - Nintendo don't speak English. But I don't care enough to write said letter. And balls to the Wii, mouse-only MMORPGs are a lot less strenuous to play so imma play one of those in the meantime (it's called Wakfu, it's a lot like a Final Fantasy Tactics MMO, and it's one beautiful little game).

My most likely, final course of action is to forget motion controlled games like the gaming world will - it was a fun flash in the pan. Oh amnesia, you strangely useful brain-fart you! And like I suggested earlier, I think this epiphany calls for more blogging. Or I will always suck at real life, being a possible gaming addict. So, umm, if you're interested my next post will be an overview of my social enterprise funded project thus far. It's called G.O.A.T. and it's going to be a series of creative/motivational workshops based in my hometown of Newry, Northern Ireland. I'd show you my annotated map of local hotspots, but Google+ is a bit poncey for me, personally. And I'd get a pitchfork through my window if I published it...